Creation

A Random Letter To You

July 22, 2018




Hello. How are you? I miss you. I really do. I hate that you never even check the message I sent. It makes me wonder... why?

What are you trying to imply?

At Midnight I Woke Up And Wrote You This


I know you don’t owe me any explanation... Nor did we have any relationship now besides knowing each other more than 10 years back. 

I know that if you do reply, it will change nothing. It will just bring back horrible memories, maybe.

I know that if you view my message, it would just be a waste of time because you wouldn’t know what to say or why you would even bother. Let's put it out there. Maybe you just don’t want to talk to me — plain and simple.

I wonder if I did the same to you. Did I ignore you too? I can think of several people I've done this to and I feel bad now. But you were a different story. Ours was a different story. I know. I don’t have any right to claim such. Sorry. I’m just confused now.

Don’t you want to be my friend anymore?

Why now? You must have wondered. 
Will you accept it if I say I don't know?

Because maybe it takes people time to realize they miss people too?
Because maybe they had struggles to deal with first about themselves before they can feel for others again?
Because maybe they're just stupid enough to realize it now?

You’re ignoring me after saying you missed me. Did you really miss me? Because I did. When I said I miss you, I did. I don’t tell people I miss them when I don’t.

When I said I wanna know your story, I meant it too. I wanna know how you’re doing. I know you are alone there and I wanna tell you how proud I am of you. You’ve come a long way — having a journey on your own away from your family and I admire you for that.

I’ve always known that you can do it. You can live life. You have always been so strong and positive. I love how you’re always yourself — confident and doing the things you love. I kinda envy you, actually.

I wanna know and confirm if all these are just in my head, but a part of me says that these are true. I know life isn’t perfect there. No one’s life is perfect, but I know you’re doing all the best you can to have a good time and live a better life. And I wanna tell you how happy I am for you.

I wanna hear all the stories — okay, a few excerpts are good enough. I’d love to hear them... come from you. I want to hear again how proud you are of those little achievements, of your new friends, of your family. I wanna hear your new dreams.

I wanna know if you’re still the same or how different you are from the 'you' I’ve known. One thing I’m sure is: you’ve become a better version. Who am I to know? I just know you’re a good person. 

I wanna know how your heart is doing now and I want nothing more than that.

I am sure I don’t have that role in your life anymore but in my life, you will always have a big part. You will always be one of my favorite persons in this world.

I may seem like a witch saying this — after hurting you deeply before. I wish you’d understand too where I was coming from all these years. Back then, I didn’t know any better.

I hope you’d forgive me. I want you to be happy.
That’s all I want.

I still remember saying that if we’re meant to be, we will be. Right now, if you’re better there, I’d want you to stay there. If you don’t want to have any connections with me anymore, it will hurt but I’ll respect that.

Just know that you are an amazing person and that you should always take care of yourself. ‘Til then.




ᜐᜓᜎᜆ᜔ ᜉᜇ ᜐᜌᜓ
(Sulat para sa'yo)


xxx

C.I.A
(Create & Inspire Always)






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2 comments

  1. Awwwww. May kwento ko kaso wala lang. Haha. ❤❤❤ love this!

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